It has been nearly a year since i last blog. Actually, I had forgotten all about it if not for friendster upgrading. Well lots of things have once again changed. Of course the kids are bigger- Nathan 3 & half yrs old & Nicole is 1 & half yrs old.
Just celebrated their 3rd & 1st birthday together at East Coast Chalet in May- Balloon sculpture theme. It was very enjoyable. But on 13/08/2008 (Wed) @ 8pm, Nicole had her 1st febrile fits & thereafter she stopped breathing for a minute & i did breathing CPR on her. It was one of the worst nightmare that i had with my kids.
When Nathan was only 21 days old, he had fallen off his clotbed & I had to pick him up from the floor. At that time, his tiny little mouth is bloody red in color as there were 3 cuts on his gum.
This year Nathan was admitted to MAH on 2nd day of Lunar Chinese New Year & had stayed 4 days. He was very weak & fragile as he had contacted otitis media with bronchitis & mycoplasma. It's basically ear, throat & lung infections. Due to this, I had to resign from my work in March'2008 but in July'2008 i rejoined them as part-time. I managed to put Nathan to a 3hours school instead of the childcare that he was in for barely 2months.
I'm just hoping & praying that my 2 kids can grow up normally & healthy before i really can decide for the next move in my life especially my career. Ha ha ha... after the all I'm still not as ambitious like my mum.
May God blessings always be with you 2 angels of mine-Nathan & Nicole. Mummy loves you always
Tuesday, 16 September 2008
Sunday, 21 October 2007
My Princess Nicole
Nicole is 5months and a day old today.
Wow still remember the day I was shock to realise I was pregnant with Nicole and now she is over 5 months.
Ha ha ha.....
Her godmum say she is photostat from me
Err.... What do you think?
Friday, 12 October 2007
Sad Or Happy
Was asking myself this question today : Should I Be Sad or Happy?
Why? Well let me narrate a bit more about this week.
Monday am - woke up with a heavy & super blocked nose, instantly I knew I'm down with URTI. Mucus was so thick like glue & yellowish. I sms Debbie, my team leader, that i need to see Dr. Instantly I thought of all my pts. If I were to continue working, surely I will infect them with my bacteria. Especially their immunity is already so low, typically Uncle T, whom contacted pneumonia just by going to hospital for checkup. I know it will cause terrible causes to him & trauma to the family. Anyway, Dr gave me 2 days mc and wrack me with very strong antibiotic.
Tuesday, woke up with a very weak body. Can image what all my pt went through, felt so much for them. Thank God! I know I'm better & tom can go visit them like before. In fact, I miss them all, especially Uncle T
Wednesday 525hrs, woke up due to terrible stomache & gastric pain. Was running through my meds cabinet suddenly the urge just came. Leaving me with no choice but to dash to the washroom & all the food that i ate last nite vomiited out. Not once but total of 3 times, it seem like i am so nearly to vomit my guts out. Franxis woke up in fight to see me in this stage. Then worse of all, all these followed with 5 times of diarrhea. Not loose but really watery stool. Once again i knew i need to be on mc maybe even hospitalise cos i have FOOD POSIONING! I requested Fx to take urgent leave & take me to see Dr. Indeed, i m really having food poisoning. Dr gave me a jab that i normally WILL & SURELY reject in the past but not now cos i think i really want to see my pt fast again. It is super effective that i stopped vomitting that pm but oso super sleepy. I was given 2 days mc. Never mind at least i get to see my pt on friday!
Thursday, basically my recuperating day. Stopped taking coffee since yestersday & told myself that i need to be strong for my pt so i will stop my coffee at least a week. Then i m extra careful with my food intake too.
Friday! Thank God! I feel weak but sure i can at least see 5 pt but if need to think i can push to 6pts.Fx send me to work, hee hee... think must have fighten him this week. Dun tik i ever so sick down with 2 sickness at one go. Well the whole actual story started from this day....
It was not smooth at all today cos got piles of paper work & dozens of pt not review this week worse i have & forgotten to call them least to check if they are all ok. I tell myself its ok so next time i will know what to do. Well at least Debbie & Dr Wynn had helped me with half of my pts. Early am when Debbie passed the report of my pts that was reviewed by her & Dr Wynn, I got to know that Uncle T was deteriorating. Sad i Felt but i know all my pts will come this day. Then around 1pm Auntie T called me to go visit Uncle T as he has difficulties in sawllowing. But in view of all my planned pts, they all need urgent review so i told Auntie T that i can only come by after all the pt & she agreed to it. Finally, I finished my last case at 550pm. Immediately, i went to take a cab to Uncle T home. But i waited & waited no cab available cos all going to jurong to change shift. Sometimes I wonder why every cabs chnage shift at the same time then ppl who need cab - HOW? I can do nothing but pray and after a long long wait i manage to get a cab. When i arrived at Uncle T home, the gates are wide open & there were 3 umbrella been throw anyhow. Immediately, i knew something is wrong.
True indeed, when i got to the house, i saw Uncle T 3 friends & they say that he is upstairs. Feeling a little relief, i went upstair. I went straight to Uncle T room, i saw his peaceful face, thinking he might just doze off, i tried asking Auntie T to talk outside first then came the shocking news.
Uncle T had stopped breathing since 6pm!!!!!!!!!!!
An overwhelming feeling came over me but i control it down, as the principle nurse-in-charge of Uncle T i know i need to be calm for Auntie T & the family. I took the pulse & listen for breath sound but i feel nothing & hear nothing. I knew he was gone. Calmly, I asked if any dr was informed, Uncle T son whom i never met say yes. Then i direct Uncle son & dtr-in-law out to talk to them of the procedure of getting things done. I went back to Auntie T gave her a big tight hug. Auntie T was very grateful & appreciative. Then i made my move. I DID NOT EVEN SHED ASINGLE DROP OF TEAR!!!!!!!
Till now i still did not, i ask myself why? I think i m sad that Uncle T was gone forever but his sweet voice & his wonderful arts will be kept in my heart for the rest of my years & days. I think i m happy too cos i know he outermost got his wish od to die at home with no suffering. He looks peaceful & as according to family they only realise at 6pm cos he did not struggle & just lying on bed with eyes closed.
Still my question is SHOULD I BE SAD OR HAPPY?
I am still at my office, all alone but no fear. Soothing music from FM 92.4 in the air loud but not noisy. Feel very peaceful & i think this is the outermost feelings that what a true nurse can have for all her pallative pts. Rest well Uncle T, you will be missed by me but i thanks you for you have bring me joy & love that you may have & will never know. My best wishes for Auntie T & family. Be strong & face each day like a new challenge in life. May God blessings be upon all living things on earth to find peace & harmony but most importantly the meaning of living then when the day we meet our maker, we can proudly say I HAD A GREAT LIFE!
Why? Well let me narrate a bit more about this week.
Monday am - woke up with a heavy & super blocked nose, instantly I knew I'm down with URTI. Mucus was so thick like glue & yellowish. I sms Debbie, my team leader, that i need to see Dr. Instantly I thought of all my pts. If I were to continue working, surely I will infect them with my bacteria. Especially their immunity is already so low, typically Uncle T, whom contacted pneumonia just by going to hospital for checkup. I know it will cause terrible causes to him & trauma to the family. Anyway, Dr gave me 2 days mc and wrack me with very strong antibiotic.
Tuesday, woke up with a very weak body. Can image what all my pt went through, felt so much for them. Thank God! I know I'm better & tom can go visit them like before. In fact, I miss them all, especially Uncle T
Wednesday 525hrs, woke up due to terrible stomache & gastric pain. Was running through my meds cabinet suddenly the urge just came. Leaving me with no choice but to dash to the washroom & all the food that i ate last nite vomiited out. Not once but total of 3 times, it seem like i am so nearly to vomit my guts out. Franxis woke up in fight to see me in this stage. Then worse of all, all these followed with 5 times of diarrhea. Not loose but really watery stool. Once again i knew i need to be on mc maybe even hospitalise cos i have FOOD POSIONING! I requested Fx to take urgent leave & take me to see Dr. Indeed, i m really having food poisoning. Dr gave me a jab that i normally WILL & SURELY reject in the past but not now cos i think i really want to see my pt fast again. It is super effective that i stopped vomitting that pm but oso super sleepy. I was given 2 days mc. Never mind at least i get to see my pt on friday!
Thursday, basically my recuperating day. Stopped taking coffee since yestersday & told myself that i need to be strong for my pt so i will stop my coffee at least a week. Then i m extra careful with my food intake too.
Friday! Thank God! I feel weak but sure i can at least see 5 pt but if need to think i can push to 6pts.Fx send me to work, hee hee... think must have fighten him this week. Dun tik i ever so sick down with 2 sickness at one go. Well the whole actual story started from this day....
It was not smooth at all today cos got piles of paper work & dozens of pt not review this week worse i have & forgotten to call them least to check if they are all ok. I tell myself its ok so next time i will know what to do. Well at least Debbie & Dr Wynn had helped me with half of my pts. Early am when Debbie passed the report of my pts that was reviewed by her & Dr Wynn, I got to know that Uncle T was deteriorating. Sad i Felt but i know all my pts will come this day. Then around 1pm Auntie T called me to go visit Uncle T as he has difficulties in sawllowing. But in view of all my planned pts, they all need urgent review so i told Auntie T that i can only come by after all the pt & she agreed to it. Finally, I finished my last case at 550pm. Immediately, i went to take a cab to Uncle T home. But i waited & waited no cab available cos all going to jurong to change shift. Sometimes I wonder why every cabs chnage shift at the same time then ppl who need cab - HOW? I can do nothing but pray and after a long long wait i manage to get a cab. When i arrived at Uncle T home, the gates are wide open & there were 3 umbrella been throw anyhow. Immediately, i knew something is wrong.
True indeed, when i got to the house, i saw Uncle T 3 friends & they say that he is upstairs. Feeling a little relief, i went upstair. I went straight to Uncle T room, i saw his peaceful face, thinking he might just doze off, i tried asking Auntie T to talk outside first then came the shocking news.
Uncle T had stopped breathing since 6pm!!!!!!!!!!!
An overwhelming feeling came over me but i control it down, as the principle nurse-in-charge of Uncle T i know i need to be calm for Auntie T & the family. I took the pulse & listen for breath sound but i feel nothing & hear nothing. I knew he was gone. Calmly, I asked if any dr was informed, Uncle T son whom i never met say yes. Then i direct Uncle son & dtr-in-law out to talk to them of the procedure of getting things done. I went back to Auntie T gave her a big tight hug. Auntie T was very grateful & appreciative. Then i made my move. I DID NOT EVEN SHED ASINGLE DROP OF TEAR!!!!!!!
Till now i still did not, i ask myself why? I think i m sad that Uncle T was gone forever but his sweet voice & his wonderful arts will be kept in my heart for the rest of my years & days. I think i m happy too cos i know he outermost got his wish od to die at home with no suffering. He looks peaceful & as according to family they only realise at 6pm cos he did not struggle & just lying on bed with eyes closed.
Still my question is SHOULD I BE SAD OR HAPPY?
I am still at my office, all alone but no fear. Soothing music from FM 92.4 in the air loud but not noisy. Feel very peaceful & i think this is the outermost feelings that what a true nurse can have for all her pallative pts. Rest well Uncle T, you will be missed by me but i thanks you for you have bring me joy & love that you may have & will never know. My best wishes for Auntie T & family. Be strong & face each day like a new challenge in life. May God blessings be upon all living things on earth to find peace & harmony but most importantly the meaning of living then when the day we meet our maker, we can proudly say I HAD A GREAT LIFE!
Tuesday, 14 August 2007
New Job New Satisfaction
It has been weeks to months since i last blog.
Recently got into a new working environment.
An area that i never thought of going into actually.
When i first went back nursing, I wanted to do geriatric.
I went to Ang Mio Kio Hospital for attachment during my 1st posting in NYP.
I love the sick old folk, i even do haircut for them.
I jus feel i cannot do enough for them.
I did even ask for sponsership back then but MAH accepted and sign me before AMK hospital could offer me a post there.
Later after tat i even ask AH to buy my bond but the only reply they give me is that government hospital do not buy bonds from the private sector anymore.
So I tried asking to work at geriatric after my study at MAH.
But there isn't any geriatric, instead they send me to paediatric.
What a great different but i still learned & had enjoyed very much for the past 3 yrs.
This yr July I went to Recuitexpress for job & they offer me research nurse post.
This is where ironically change my career path till now.
I met Grace Kavaita preciously from HCA Hospice Care.
We were actually competing for a contact research nurse post but instead we hit off so well.
She introduce me into this HCA Hospice Home Care Nurse post that I am holding now.
I have been telling Franxis how much I have love about this job.
Been a practical mother, this job offer 5 days office hrs work.
Basically I work 8.30am-5.30pm Mon to Fri.
Only once a mth I will have to work on sat but the following fri will be given off to me.
Then every 3 mths i will be oncall on one sat & one sun.
Then the following wed & thurs is off.
On top of all, I am entitled all benefits same as govt hospital.
Every staffs are given opportunities to be sponser for 2 certs thereafter will need to pay by own.
Now and then will have oversea conference for 1-2weeks depending on the length of it.
Well pay wise is ...... GOOD
With this job I will have good career advancement, study opportunity and its not restricted to Singapore only.
After 2 -3 weeks of training I already feel like what a real nurse should be.
In Singapore hospital we jus take orders n shits from DOC but here we discuss it like partners.
My statellie Dr Wyn is a very nice lady doctor.
Whenever we ask her opinion, she will surely ask back "ok tell me what will you do or what do you think we should do" instead of the normally answers from DOC "well you SHOULD do this SHould do that"
Never have we nurses ever given a chance to really DISCUSS and plan pt care wif doctors in hospital, we are like maid servant to the DOC.
But the doctors here are really treating us as the professional nurse.
We discuss pt care plan and independently carring it out.
Our big boss say we are like mini doctors.
So much of respect I have never ever felt in this nursing profession.
We can even prescript some common medication like codine to our pt independently.
As this is a funded organisation, we depend mostly from NCC and public donations.
So our pt can get free services from us but SRN are salaried same as market rate.
It can be quite tiring to travel from home to home.
It can be quite taxing when faced to unreasonable pt or family members.
It can be quite emotionally draining when all we get are permeantly discharging pt (RIP)
But all these are worthwhile.....cos we have walk through the thicks and thins with these group of helpless pt through the last part of their journey on earth
Recently got into a new working environment.
An area that i never thought of going into actually.
When i first went back nursing, I wanted to do geriatric.
I went to Ang Mio Kio Hospital for attachment during my 1st posting in NYP.
I love the sick old folk, i even do haircut for them.
I jus feel i cannot do enough for them.
I did even ask for sponsership back then but MAH accepted and sign me before AMK hospital could offer me a post there.
Later after tat i even ask AH to buy my bond but the only reply they give me is that government hospital do not buy bonds from the private sector anymore.
So I tried asking to work at geriatric after my study at MAH.
But there isn't any geriatric, instead they send me to paediatric.
What a great different but i still learned & had enjoyed very much for the past 3 yrs.
This yr July I went to Recuitexpress for job & they offer me research nurse post.
This is where ironically change my career path till now.
I met Grace Kavaita preciously from HCA Hospice Care.
We were actually competing for a contact research nurse post but instead we hit off so well.
She introduce me into this HCA Hospice Home Care Nurse post that I am holding now.
I have been telling Franxis how much I have love about this job.
Been a practical mother, this job offer 5 days office hrs work.
Basically I work 8.30am-5.30pm Mon to Fri.
Only once a mth I will have to work on sat but the following fri will be given off to me.
Then every 3 mths i will be oncall on one sat & one sun.
Then the following wed & thurs is off.
On top of all, I am entitled all benefits same as govt hospital.
Every staffs are given opportunities to be sponser for 2 certs thereafter will need to pay by own.
Now and then will have oversea conference for 1-2weeks depending on the length of it.
Well pay wise is ...... GOOD
With this job I will have good career advancement, study opportunity and its not restricted to Singapore only.
After 2 -3 weeks of training I already feel like what a real nurse should be.
In Singapore hospital we jus take orders n shits from DOC but here we discuss it like partners.
My statellie Dr Wyn is a very nice lady doctor.
Whenever we ask her opinion, she will surely ask back "ok tell me what will you do or what do you think we should do" instead of the normally answers from DOC "well you SHOULD do this SHould do that"
Never have we nurses ever given a chance to really DISCUSS and plan pt care wif doctors in hospital, we are like maid servant to the DOC.
But the doctors here are really treating us as the professional nurse.
We discuss pt care plan and independently carring it out.
Our big boss say we are like mini doctors.
So much of respect I have never ever felt in this nursing profession.
We can even prescript some common medication like codine to our pt independently.
As this is a funded organisation, we depend mostly from NCC and public donations.
So our pt can get free services from us but SRN are salaried same as market rate.
It can be quite tiring to travel from home to home.
It can be quite taxing when faced to unreasonable pt or family members.
It can be quite emotionally draining when all we get are permeantly discharging pt (RIP)
But all these are worthwhile.....cos we have walk through the thicks and thins with these group of helpless pt through the last part of their journey on earth
Tuesday, 26 June 2007
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